~1stSurugi

... ...No, that's actually all I had to say. I'm not a religious man. That's it. I'm not. Really.

Thanks for reading

So, I'm dealing with some shit, mainly at work, and though I try to work myself back into the groove of drawing, every day I have to deal with it, I just can't do it. Every time this happens, I lose an entire day, as I spend the whole rest of the day wondering how to improve my situation, and worried about how the next day is going to go.

The anxiety I experience has me wondering how much more of this I can take before I stroke out or something. Needless to say, my suffering artwork is not the most important issue. Still though, it really bothers me that I can't work past this enough to concentrate on my art. I don't quite know what I'm trying to say, but I guess I need to get this in words. Thanks for reading.

Ever since I *finally* started posting my stuff here, more than a year after I first joined, I find myself checking in every few minutes when I'm not at work or elsewhere to see my hit count, or to check my messages to see if someone left any comments ( I enjoy those, people, please post some in my gallery ) or faved/watched me.

It's very nearly a bona fide addiction for me. But... the term addiction gets an unfair bad rap. This one isn't harmful, in fact, some might say it's beneficial. It's one of the few things I look forward to, and one of the only constructive things I have besides work.

Nevertheless, I may still be overdoing it. It's like crack ! Does anyone else feel that way about their DA page?

*Well, I went to the FemaleMuscle page, and they say I'm a new member , so I guess I'm obliged to post their logo on my journal *

Can someone tell me why my latest submission will not appear in the search engine under any of the keywords I entered when I uploaded it? It's been 24 hours, I know it doesn't take that long for a work to propagate into the system. Or does it sometimes? Really frustrated here, sent a help request, but who knows when I'll get an answer there, eh?

Edit: It appears that the problem has resolved itself.

Well, I have at least one more finished work forthcoming, and possibly 2 or 3 more.

For those few of you who have seen my unfinished works, and for the ones who would like to, in my scraps and in my gallery, I'd like to request some Encouragement in completing those pictures.

The one titled Bikini Chick was, as stated in the description, fully completed before I finished high school, after which, I was so unhappy with the turnout that I erased all the values and shading, redrew certain parts, and started over with the valuing which, according to the annoyingly prolific (but nonetheless great ) Black Kusanagi, is very well done so far. Been working off and on on this one for THE PAST 6 YEARS!! it's time to finish it.

Instructor Lady. I achieved a new level of valuing when I started filling it in. I believe I stopped because of a couple errors that led to the paper wearing out somewhat (stupid cheap ass paper), but I put too much work into that one to just let it go; I guess I could save it in photoshop once the bulk of the pencil work is done. Started that one sometime in 2004 and damn, I'm just as interested in seeing the end result as you are.

Sledgehammer girl. Started out as a simple sketch, but I was able to get so far so fast on it that i decided to make a full pic out of it, and of course, that's when I got stuck Nearly a year on that one.

Then of course, there are the hundreds of ideas I haven't even set to paper yet!!! So, I'm thinking, if I have people who are looking forward to seeing that stuff, I'll have more motivation to actually get it done. What do you think? I'd appreciate anything you want to offer.